Inspired!

The summer heat has continued well into Autumn. I suppose the weather does not follow dates or deadlines. It felt like the cooler weather would never come but tonight we have been granted some reprieve. 

This week I have been on leave from work. It has been lovely to have time at home. At first, not much happened. The first few days it did not much at all, I was burnout and I didn’t realise how bad. These days were spent doing ‘comfy’ things. Playing World of Warcraft, Colouring in, and spending quality time with my husband. 

I had big plans that I was going to so much on leave but we ended up sitting on the couch, singling along at the top of our lungs to music videos and just sitting together reminiscing. It was the food my soul desired. 

And feed it did, my energy returned and off I went. I am very proud of myself that I was able to clean out our laundry room (otherwise known as the dumping room - I don’t do doom piles, I did a doom room!) and cleaning up out backyard which had been neglected for a few weeks. I even have the sunburn to prove it.

With the return of my energy, came to the return of my inspiration. I have spoken previously about how this year was not turning out how I had planned. I realise now, a lot of this was from stress and overwhelm from lots of big things going on in my life. The event has settled, I have recharged and I am feeling like I am back on track. 

The return of my inspiration came on the form of wanting to write. My mother-in-law is an artist and a creative soul. I was speaking to her during the week and we got on the topic of writing, her wanting to write a memoir and myself wanting to write poetry. She gave me some tips on poetry writing and I have big ideas. I realised, I have the words in me, but I never knew how to express them. 

I notice so much in my environment but was unsure how to capture it and express it. Its those things that just show up in the moment. An example isI was laying in bed and listening to the magpies singing. I love that sound, I conjures so many wonderful and safe memories of me being at my grandparents house. I can capture that moment so easily now with words and share what it means to me. 

My maternal grandfather passed away a couple of years ago. It was at their house that I always felt safe and happy. My grandfather had so many stories and he loved to share. I wish I had been able to capture those stories, in some way, along with his character and his teasing good natured ways. I miss him so much. This is part of the reason I want to capture so much. A legacy for my family so my children and all who follow them can have a connection to me and an understanding.  Its funny, as an autistic person, I don’t do social very well and it can be draining but I crave connection, I just connect in different ways. 

Following on from my creative initial inspiration this week, it is as if the universe knew where I was at and went right, time to level up. I have had so many things present themselves and fall in front of me and I have been grabbing them with both hands. An example of this is I found a new Instagram account that I followed and in one of their reels they said “your real job is your side hustle” when talking about creativity. Mind blown. It is amazing how much perspective can change things. That night I was trying to go to sleep and my mind was on high gear. Luckily enough for me, I keep post-its all over the house for times like these. Ever couple of minutes I was writing a new idea down. It felt amazing!

Hope you all feel inspired this week xx